Bored Of It All Now

I have been mooning over this guy for what seems like eternity.

And I am bored of it. No doubt it will all go wrong and FUBAR etc so really I am just setting myself up for a fall.

Mebbe I should just not worry about it until there is something real there for me to actually worry about. I should also stop wittering about a guy who is so in to me that he lives with another woman.

So moving on. Tarot.

Now I like the idea of tarot. I don't have any real inkling that it is true but I read my starsign every so often. I just set no store by it. So I did a Tarot reading and here is what I got.

Card one: Knight of Wands in the "Love & Me" position

Main (positional) Meaning: A new journey of discovery in the romantic realm is about to be embarked upon with optimism and high spirits. The card in the Love & Me position touches on an aspect of how you perceive yourself with regard to possible intimacy in your life. The Knight of Wands (in some decks, a Prince) in this position indicates readiness for a voyage of discovery for you and your possible love interest. You are prepared for the journey, your effects are in order, you are in great shape and the excitement of departure prevails. Inside there is a powerful feeling of youthful idealism - you have no idea if this is going to be difficult or not, but those problems are tomorrow's problems. Today the energy is high, spirits are bright, the sky is clear and if there ever was a heroic and noble impulse in you, you are getting a chance to express it now.

Card two: Ace of Swords in the "Situation" position

Main (positional) Meaning: It is vital to clear up any misunderstandings or miscommunications so you and your desired love interest can get on the same page. The card that lands in the Situation position refers to social or circumstantial factors which could be affecting your life at this time. The Ace of Swords in this position indicates a pathway to a mutual destination that zigs and zags in different ways for you and your potential partner. It's all too easy to lose touch with one another along the way. It takes a lot of trust and empathy to stay connected while having different experiences moment to moment. The forthcoming stage of your relationship may be testing you both to see whether or not you are working with mutual values and goals in mind. As your shared intent becomes clearer, the two of you may become shining examples for others. You may both know what your next step is. Use this Sword to draw the fine line between facts and feelings, between expression and exaggeration. Just state the bare truth, and resist any tendency to embroider it.

Card three: Five of Coins in the "Challenges" position

Main (positional) Meaning: Stay conscious of your deepest values and most cherished long-term relationship goals. The card that lands in the Challenges position refers to ways that you can turn obstacles into stepping stones. The Five of Coins in this position challenges you to stay in balance when you experience arousal from powerful, new magnetic forces of change. No matter how exhilarating and overpowering this feeling may be, remain attuned to the standards and relationship goals that have always been important to you. Promises you may make or which are made to you in a potential relationship at this time must be congruent with your overall goals or else there may be conflict in the future. Take the time to communicate your wishes to your next partner so you are both working towards the same objectives. You'll appreciate each other's efforts more as a result.
Note: In the English decks, like the Rider-Waite, the sickly poor freezing outside a well-lit church warn of the painful outcomes of bad choices, rather than focusing on the dynamic tension of the choosing itself, as in the traditional Continental decks.


So. I decide to stop thinking about a bloke/ relationship I currently have no control over or say in and what does my Tarot go on about?

Sodding relationships!!!

I give up.




All Tarot info gotten from tarot.com. Go. Make a free account. Or don't. Up to you.

Quoteage

So sweet.

You may need a sick bag to read the below quote but I like it so ner, ner, ner!




"You're nothing short of my everything." - Ralph Block

A senior citizen drove his brand new BMW Z3 convertible out ofthe car salesroom.

Taking off down the motorway, he floored it to 90mph, enjoying the wind blowing through what little hair he had left. "Amazing!" he thought as he flew down the M40, enjoying pushing the pedal to the metal even more.

Looking in his rear view mirror, he saw a police car behind him, blue lights flashing and siren blaring."I can get away from him - no problem!" thought the elderly nutcase as he floored it to 110mph, then 120, then 130mph.

Suddenly, he thought,"What on earth am I doing? I'm too old for this nonsense!" So he pulled over to the side of the road and waited for the police car to catch up with him.

Pulling in behind him, the police officer walked up to the driver's side of the BMW, looked at his watch and said, "Sir, my shift ends in 10 minutes. Today is Friday and I'm taking off for the weekend. If you can give me a reason why you were speeding that I've never heard before,I'll let you go."

The man, looked very seriously at the policeman, and replied, "Years ago, my wife ran off with a policeman. I thought you were bringing her back."

"Have a good day, Sir," said the policeman

Bit Pointless

A sense of duty is useful in work, but offensive in personal relations. People wish to be liked, not be endured with patient resignation.

In The Middle Of The Night

Got home just after 1am this morning. Had been to Gillians 40th. Dragged along with me my dear friends, Lorna and Charlie. Lorna decided to start drinking Malibu while I was still in the bath so by 23:10 she was already sozzled and complaining about wanting to go home.

Unfortunately for her she had already agreed to go dancing for a bit before we let her go home so her cries and pleas of “my baby is one tomorrow” fell upon deaf ears. Well not totally deaf – we heard enough to know what she was talking about and felt the need to torture the poor girl about loving her daughter more than her son.

*evil laugh*


So we dragged her arse to the night club where she kinda just wobbled like a weevil instead of actually dancing.

Finally decided we had tortured the poor girl enough so we took her home.

I sent Charlie off on the long climb to the top of my house where she would be spending the night and I attempted to go to bed without being distracted by watching Red Dwarf.

Didn’t manage it which is why, when 10 minutes later I heard stones hitting my bedroom window, I still had a full face of make up.

Score.

It was him!!!! He had turned up again just to see lil’ ole me. *grin* So I merrily skipped down the stairs and let him in.

Mwah, mwah later he stops, looks at me and says “can I ask a personal question?”

Bugger, what on earth is he gonna ask??? I immediately think “No, no, no, no, no, no!” But being me what actually comes out of my mouth is “sure”.

“Where do you see us going?”

Now I have never been asked that sort of question before and my first instinct is to avoid it but he is having none of it so, possibly for the first time ever, I answer honestly to a guy I like and don’t really know to well.

I tell him that I like him. I tell him that I want to be with him.

May not seem like much but, for me, it’s a big deal.

Ask anyone.

Now it is a bit complicated and there are a few issues going on in the background that I’m not going to go into as it is annoying and as a kinda safety precaution.

But he likes me. His words “I really do have feelings for you.” I’ve never had anyone have feelings for me before. The rest of the sentence finished, however with “which is strange because you annoy the hell out of me!” Now that I have done before! *grin*

He has been thinking about me constantly and just wants to be with me. Doesn’t want to be without me. It’s so nice. Not had that sort of thing before and I have had a silly grin on my face ever since.

I like this guy.

Lets see how long it takes for me to fuck it up.

Just a Quickie

Hi all

Just a quick note to say that I am gonna have a proper blog post which will involve: -

Buying a House?
Work
My Knees
An Invitation
Stress
Possibly a Huge Apology to Everyone as I have been Acting Pycho...
A Joke

The reasons for all above will become clear when I actually have a spare year to write the bloody post.

Inner Peace

I am passing this on to you because it definitely worked for me, and we could all do with a little calm.

By following the simple advice I read in an article, I have finally found inner peace.

The article read: "The way to achieve inner peace is to finish off all the things you have started".

So I looked round the house to see all the things I had started and hadn't finished. And before leaving the house I finished off a bottle of red wine, a bottle of white wine, the Baileys, three Bacardi Breezers, the Jack Daniels, the Prozac, some Valium, some cheesecake and a box of chocolates.

You have no idea how bloody good I feel.